Issue 4 TOC
 
Hoist

by Perry Crowe 

 

John figured
It was time
To go

When he
Went

Useless

From
The waist

Down

Tried to
Cope

Compensate

Pass

But shit
Sucks

When you’re

Useless

From
The waist

Down

Really
Takes the

Piss down
Your leg

Bought
A rope
tossed

Round
A rafter

neck
tie of
twine

but lying
on the
floor

in a
heap
how to
get high

enough
to swing

hand over
hand

pulley
and lever

constricting

reddening

hoisting

higher
and higher

face full
flush eyes
rolling
back

almost

sweet
oblivion
other
side of
searing

lungs

serenity

losing

grip

goes with
consciousness
taut goes

slack
thud on

his
back
cardiac
whack
back
he’s

gasping

still here
and still

useless

from
the waist

up
and
down
all night

just high
enough
to die
a
little
then fall
to defibrillate

strain
growing

shoulders
weakening

palms
bleeding

throat
scratchy

neck raw

still here
and still

climbing
and falling

never dying
quite

enough
to keep

going

up
and down

why not just
crawl

in front of
a bus?

into
the oven?

off
the fire

escape?

Nah

John said

Getting
A new
Grip

I got this.